Are We There Yet???

Hi,
Ok so it is Sunday and will we here anything concrete this next week? I have feeling
we may. It sure does seem like we are in a dream. I can hardly believe that we are
going to find out who our child is. Maybe with in the next week or so. I'm still gaurding
my heart. I haven't told as many people. I'm going to wait until we actually get the call.
So for now, it's off to work. We have so many things to finish before we go to China.
Hopefully on Tuesday I will have more to tell.

Love,
Nikki

Getting nervous and sad abouth the Quake

Hi,
I just read on RQ that there was another Quake in China. It saddens me that 3 lives have
been taken. Many lives have been affected. But at the same time I am excited and nervous
about our referral. I hate to be selfish. Especially in China's time of need and sorrow. I will
pray for these families. I will pray for our Daughter's safety. Maybe there will be no more
tragedy for China' people as the after affects from the earth quake. As we inch closer to our
daughter I hope that she is safe, loved, and comforted.

Love,
Nikki
One lucky Mommy to Joel, Makena, and soon to be another.

So we are not in for August

Ok so we didn't make it to the cut off this month. The CCAA only did til the 31st of Jan. But
really only 2 days worth. We are techinically the next lid 2-6-06. The question is will be in
September. I sure do hope so. This month was so hard. But at least I know that we are on
the bubble for next month.. Makena started kindergarden last Tuesday and it has not been
easy for any of us. She didn't do well at her after school day care. So I switch her to another
and today was her first day there. She cried today but did eat her lunch. That is an improvement from the other place. That's a story all of it's own. It' hard letting go of child.
To allow try to trust others to educate and care for them. I have cried so much. I don't let
her see me. But it is not easy to put on a smile and tell her she'll be ok there. She loves her
kindergarden class. So that helps alot. For now I will enjoy the days we do have together until
she is gone all day to school. I will encourage her to like daycare. I will pray for the safety and
love for our next little precious girl.

Love,
Nikki

Mamaw and cousin Sophia and Makena

No News yet tihis week????

Well, there is really no update from our agency yet. But we are hoping something will happen
next week. I go back and forth with are we in or not. I have a deep feeling that we are. I can't
stand it. I want to know who she is. This is just to exciting. Makena is asking more often "when
is she coming home"? I tell her soon maybe in 10 weeks. She carries on after that. We are
putting the baby bed together this weekend. I'm hoping to bring home some toys from Dad's.
I have been working a second job at a retirement home. I do enjoy it. It' relaxing but at times
can be very busy. It is definitley a different kind of nursing. That's it for now.

Love,
Nikki